It has been an INCREDIBLY long time since I have written a blog post. I originally began writing after my life-long best friend began writing blog posts anout her life and what God was showing her. She inspired me to start my own blog, and I looked at it as a way to reflect on what Christ was doing in my life and how He was growing me in Him.
I must admit that I’ve often thought about writing again, but decided against it because I was in a place in my life where I was not willing to reflect on my sin and allow the Holy Spirit to convict me enough to learn some spiritual lessons. I must say, this last year has been a rollercoaster. It’s been full of some of the best days and worst days I’ve seen. As I sit here holding my sweet three month old baby girl, I am overwhelmed with abundant joy and severe pain. I want to hold her indefinitely. I want to be here to see her smile, wipe away her tears, and just be her whole world. But, the reality is, I can’t. I long to be the wife that has dinner on the table, a clean house, and can give the love of my life 100% of me. I want to be the mother who spends her days taking her baby to the park, holding her just a little too much, and seeing every milestone she meets first. But I realized through the Holy Spirit’s gentle conviction that even though I can’t be everything I want to be, I can be the woman God has called me to be. I realized that as long as I’m doing what is pleasing in His eyes, I can rest in His peace. And the even better part is, I don’t have to do anything for Him to say, “You’re enough.” Because of Christ, I can have freedom to just be Caroline. I can lay down each night with the peace that My Father adores me. So, to all the mothers, wives, and women out there struggling to balance the juggling act that is your life, my encouragement is this: rest in Him. Know that you are enough in Christ. Know that He paid the price of sin for you, and strive daily to glorify Him. That’s it. That’s all. It doesn’t matter what the world says about you because if He is Savior and Lord of your life, you are His.